
Originally Posted by
jules
Hi all,
I'm new to this site. I chose to join because I started taking Alli and I do not know if it is helping...well, let me be honest...it is not working, and I want to bounce a few things off you all.
First of all, let me tell you about me. I'm 33 y.o. I'm 5' 3 1/2" tall and I weight 130 lbs. I used to be 120 and I want to get back to that weight. I have depression and ADHD, but I'm on medication that is helpful. I know that I emotionally eat and I try to only eat when I'm hungry, but it is hard.
I know Alli is for overweight people. I am not overweight and that may be part of my problem.
I find that I have very STRONG binge urges while on Alli. Also I am very tired. Honestly my eating is Worse now that I am on Alli. I stopped taking it for one day because I knew I was hurting myself. I am eating fatty foods (eg. peanut mms) and taking the drug...it just does not make sense.
Do you think I have binge urges because I am "normal" weight? Do you think my body is not getting enough of something due to the drug and is sending me signals to eat more? Do you think I am tired because I'm not absorbing the nutrients I need? Do you think this is all in my head, and is a placebo effect?
I want to be 120 lbs, but I'm not putting forth the effort needed to lose weight. I am upset with myself. I know how to eat well and I know how to exercise and I'm not doing it...it is so frusterating. I am good for three days and then I totally blow it and end up eating 800 calories at night.
All I have to do is keep my calorie count to about 1500 and exercise 5 days a week. I'm consistently eating 2500 calories daily and exercising 4 days a week. I am doing Hot yoga (bikram), I'm lifting (15 min sesssions) and I'm doing machines (bike, eliptical for 60 minutes while reading). I do not think I am working hard enough. When I was 120 lbs, I used to run at 6.5 on the treadmill for 6-8 miles 5 times weekly, and I don't have the motivation to do that now.
I wish I could be satisfied with my current weight and give this up, but I'm not. I like being a size 2-4. I like my clothes feeling loose not tight. I like how I feel when I'm 120. I feel chubby now. I am a size 4-6. I know that does not sound big, but it FEELS big.
I'm just frusterated.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I appreciate it.