Hi all,

I am a 33 yo woman. I'm 5' 3 1/2" tall and I weigh 130 lbs. I have DD breast implants, so that adds an extra 2 lbs or so. I want to be 120 again. I have depression and ADHD but I take medication and they help. I do not drink alcohol and I have not had a drink for 2 years.

Here is my problem...

I'm eating past the point of being full. I feel fullness and I push it. Nothing seems to truely "fill me up." I'm eating for emotionaly satisfaction and it is really bothering me.

I work with women with eating disorders so I know the course of treatment, but I can't seem to apply it to myself.

I never used to be like this. I dropped weight and was 120. I loved it, but I had to exercise a lot and watch everything I ate. I'm now back to my pre-diet weight of 130 and I'm unhappy.

I went through a period of food deprevation and ever since then, my binge urges are awful. I used to push myslef to eat 1200 calories daily and no more. I'm a BIG eater so that was really hard. I remember when I gave up breakfast, I was so sad, but I had to give it up to lose more weight. I was scared of feeling ravenous at night, so I did not want to limit my intake then.

I turned it around and started to eat normally again, but with normal eating came a new animal...the binge. I started to get awful binge urges. I never used to have these. In fact, I hated "junk" food. Now I crave it.

I feel so trapped.

Thanks for reading this.